Sunday, May 10, 2009

Sadness

Oh, hi, Internet! Remember me? Yes, I know, I know...it's been a long time, right? To say that the past month has been trying is a magnificent understatement; however, enumerating each of my "woes" isn't going to help one bit, so I rather not waste my barely there typing skills on that. But please bear with me as I'm going to relate something depressing. You see, a cousin of a cousin committed suicide by hanging himself last weekend. I don't know if it's because I was already in a bad place before hearing the news [key in ominous music: there was client feedback], but it really made me feel immensely sad...who wouldn't? I barely knew him...come to think of it, I'm not even sure of his name. It's just that hearing such a manner of death staggers me. To think, to feel, to believe that everything is hopeless, that death is preferable, nay, the best recourse is just so...SAD. I can't even begin to think what his parents are feeling right now. I don't really know why he did what he did, although my mom mentioned something about the bank taking their house and the rest of their properties and surely this kind of hopelessness is enough to push someone to suicide, all I can hope and pray is that he's in a better place right now and that his family will someday forget the pain.

8 comments :

  1. sad nga yan. how old was the boy?

    suicide is a sign of the end of hope. kaya nga sabi nila as long as there is hope, there is life. i'll pray for the soul of your cousin's cousin.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Thanks, KG. I'm sure he and his parents would appreciate your prayers. He was around 39, I think. The eldest son. I'm not sure if he has a family of his own.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Oh nuts, after the most celebrated issue re: Trina Etong, here comes people trying to imitate her, and thinking that it's alright. I hope the family recovers soon...

    ReplyDelete
  4. like sheng, i hope that the family be strong and that there'd be no huge, lingering psychological impact to the family members.

    ReplyDelete
  5. This is just so sad

    ReplyDelete
  6. Sheng, I beg to differ. I'm pretty sure someone who leaves behind a wife, 7 children, parents (who are in the same financial boat, or should I say, mire, as he was), and not to mention siblings who look up to him (he's the kuya) do not strike me as merely a case of "people trying to imitate her [Trina Etong]."
    Mordsith, yes, I'm hoping and praying for at least that, yet I couldn't bring myself to believe that it would be easy or soon. When my mom went to the wake, the mom of deceased wouldn't stop crying or even let go when my mom embraced her. Heartbreaking.
    Trish, I couldn't, wouldn't wish such pain even to my worst enemies. It's a death that never ends, and I'm not talking in a religious sense here. It's more like a pain that will forever gnaw on those left behind.

    ReplyDelete
  7. Diong2:01 AM

    so sad :-(

    ReplyDelete
  8. Yes, it is, Diong. :(

    ReplyDelete

I'd love to hear from you, good or bad. And remember, if you can dish it, you better be able to take it!